Life is life. It's weird, emotional, exciting, challenging, love, happiness, depression, sick, healthy, beautiful and unique all in its own ways. As we go through this journey, we hit all stops and emotions you could possibly feel as a human being experiencing 'Life'. Today I hit an emotional challenge, I found out one of my favorite cousins on my Dad's side of the family was just diagnosed with Leukemia. While talking to my Dad, I couldn't help but let the tears just stream down my face. It hurts to know someone you love is in pain, is in uncertainty, doesn't know the answers yet, all she knows is that she has something that is going to take months of treatment to cure and get out of her.
It also got me thinking about how precious life is and don't take everyday and breath for granted. One thing that really struck a cord when I was talking to my Dad.. was thinking about the last time I saw my cousin Robin and if I gave her a big enough hug, did I tell her "I love you"?
Last year I delt with anxiety taking over my every day thoughts and feelings. Everyone has different forms of anxiety and how he or she deals with it and for me, my anxiety stems from fear. I'm fearful of throwing up, getting shot, car accidents, getting food poisoning, essentially anything bad happening to me, my family, friends or someone I love. All of those things I can't fully control and once I started to grasp that I can't live my life in fear, my worries have slowly but surely started exiting my brain. It's something I struggle with every single day and continue to move in a positive light.
A few months ago I went on a trip to London, to visit friends and adventure. This was the first time in my entire life where I wouldn't have access to calling anyone on a phone. Anxiety came over me for a second, when I realized I wouldn't be able to call my Mom, Dad & family. As I get on my departing flight out of America, I immediately call my Mom before the plane takes off... she doesn't answer, I hang up and call again, voicemail. In that moment I left a voice mail saying "Hey Mom. I'm on my plane about to turn off my phone for a week and wanted to call you and tell you I love you so much. I'll text you and keep you updated on my trip. Alright got to go. I love you"
That was a moment for me, remembering to call and say "I Love You". That's all you can really do. This life is fast paced and tomorrow isn't promised for anyone. But we can take this current breath and moment to do what we want when we want. Embrace the now and remember to tell someone what they mean to you. Positive and happy thoughts to my cousin Robin-- you are a strong women and can get through this.
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Don't forget to say "I Love You"
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